Why do we love?

had spring test for lit on wed,i tink.horrible.i'm so gona fail tis time's lit test.i can imagine ms chye glaring daggers at me.ouch.had hist test today.again,it was better than lit,i knew most of the ans,cept for one qn on Emdem.was figuring out hu the bloody shit was Emdem.me,the super smart aleck,went to say he was assasinated,causing ww1.tot i pulled myself outa crisis.onli to find out from rachel tt Emdem was an it and not a he.warship.i was so downright embarrassed.imagine being told tt by someone hu's usually worse in hist than me.freaking bloody shit.blech.i am so smart.

sch was over tday so went to help ernie as usual with the cny deco.ernie was in a bit of foul mood,but i guess i can understand.the deadline's this mon.n tis ting means alot to her.so nearly got my head bitten off for going to the sec one tea.fortunately for me, some kind soul decided to talk and calm ernie down.so she was juz very tired when she said i cld go.poor ernie.

band rm was full of sec ones when i got there with sab.like us tt time.eager and nerv.mr sim toked bout the whole band thingy.chan gave his speech.pple went up to intro their instruments.from our section,we had clare and gillian.not bad.priscilla's bloody smashing. she can play both tenor and alto.woah.then had to leave halfway after tt,to go back n help ernie.sorta regret it.they were playing seventh nite.n i meant everybody together.i guess best things happen w/o me.things always go wrong with me around.

band's a blast.but i duno y.juz can't relax in band.duno wat to do there.i feel so...awkward there 50% of the time.but still.sec ones were gd tday.tt lil gal hu conducted our band the first half was there.gd for her.and a couple of shy ones.i can sympathise.i felt lidat when i was first there.new skl n everything.can't get used to so many gals minus all my guy frens.somemore their attitude and their verbal wrds totally diff.but still,clare and the rest reali helped in the getting to used process...i seem to fade away into the bckground everytime.they look at my place and juz look rite thru it.true.i'm non-existant 99.9% of the time.true.ha.ha.