Why do we love?

thank God for the gold with Roman feste that You have given us. You made me realise, that we could have had the same fate as ajc, sounding like a gold band the week before syf and yet on syf itself, a silver band. Lord, we sounded like a silver band just the week before syf, but Lord, You created a miracle, a silver band, when everything was still not in place, and messy, to a gold band on syf. Lord we could have easily slid to a bronze or silver if you were not blessing us, taking care to lead our practices, and playing the instruments for the players to give them the sound that we never heard ourselves play.. and with roman feste, the piece which was inhumanely possible to be played, Lord another miracle with the gold with just acjc in front of us, playing the exact same movements, much better than us a month before..How much we can never repay you for all the mercy and grace You have shown to us. Thank You Lord too, You answered my prayer and put me into syf. though we were all stunned, thinking of all the effort that went into roman feste would pull something more than a gold, but Lord, Your ways are much higher than ours- and Your sole intention to bless Your people, i believe that the gold, in Your hands and will, will take us further than the gold with honours would have. Truly Lord, where You lead, You will provide. : ))Amen and Hallelujah!

mmhmmm, 10 days have passed since the syf. 10 days without band practices,without the sax.in a way, it's a good break cause the midyears are upon us, and i have good cause to study harder. i have to confess, i have not been studying, been slacking so much i dont even know where to start.been coming up with so many excuses for my bad time organisation. been depressed since all the syf stress started, with me slacking all the way worsened the situation.felt alone,even asked myself why wasnt anyone helping me, making me face all this alone? didnt anyone understand i'm giving my best to handle everything given to me? but God woke me up on thursday night, when He led me to realise that there was always someone who wanted to give me all the strength to handle everything, just that i never took it, and even if i did, i never believed in it like i said i would. Jesus offered me His hand out of the depression, just that i was so persistent in trying to prove to everyone around me that things were just fine enough for me to handle all by myself, to eradicate any mockery and despise on my limited capability, that i never stopped to look above, to look in the right-direction- upwards. I have sinned against Him with my pride. i used to worry that i didnt have the capability to handle things given to me, always certain that something will screw it up, but that's not how faith works. Faith means to believe in something that it will take place even if you dont see any proof of that with your eyes. I am now trying to push the fear, doubt, anxiety that Satan has cast in my heart out in the mighty name of my one true Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.
He understands me so well. He knows i worry even when i'm not supposed to, which should really annoy and anger Him, but He keeps showing me everyday in everything that i have entrusted to Him, how well He would keep things in shape when i let Him take control. Lord, i cant minister or witness to people yet-still having a problem with one to one conversations, but Lord, i surrender myself completely to Your hands. What You have done for me, no one else can. Your Name truly deserves the highest of praise, glory and honour, and i pray You will open Your ways to me. Lord thank You that when i'm weaker,the stronger You become in my life.

to all the people i have irritated, annoyed,scared,bothered, i ask for your forgiveness... thank you still for putting up with me,with nice smiles on your faces and helping me. my brothers and sisters, remember me in your prayers okie? pray for me to keep being changed by the Lord.

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